Day 108 and it could seem that my daily blog has turned into a every other day blog. Sorry folks. So wanted to blog last night, but my Stockton hotel room didn't have wifi! Yep another reason not to visit Stockton!
I had just dropped Bart off at the airport for his red-eye flight back to Cincinnati, for the first time since 6pm on Friday I was alone for the 2 hour drive to Stockton. When I dropped my 3rd cousin off and heading to the I-99 I took some deep breathes. I was good to breath freely, because for the last 48 hours I hadn't. Bart just has this knack of getting me agitated.
but very quickly after taking some deep, silent breathes (Bart also can talk solid for 48 hours!) very quickly the silent breathes turned into sighs.
Sighs of exasperation that sometimes my own radicalness gets tempered. Bart appears somewhat free in expressing his radicalness.
Sighs of tiredness at what could be required to get the revolutionary flames burning brighter again in my leadership.
Sighs of fear. slight fear, but still fear that to truly live out some of the theology I hold will see me more misunderstood and yet again misinterpreted and accused of being a heretic.
Maybe it was just the tiredness of a busy constant 48 hours, but my first response to Bart's visit was to sigh.
Gladly it wasn't my lasting response.
By my stop at Turlock and some processing, my response turned to vigour and enthusiasm to take a hard look at so much of what happens in my own life and in the life of Redeemer's Church and how it represents Jesus.
Thanks 'Jovial Cynic' for your encouragement.
So ....that was Day 107....Day 108 I'm at a meeting with a bunch of pastors in Stockton - SIGH!
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