Day 14 - busy.

Two weeks into 2010 - Day 14.
Today was just busy.
From the moment I reached my desk to the moment I walked away - and still busy when I got home.
Busy.
Not just busy with things to do, but busy with my mind - lots of thinking happening.
Busy.
Just one of those kind of days.
Too bad busyness is not godliness!
Busy.
Spoke to Bruce in Germany; spoke to Ben in Kenya; spoke to Raymond in Britain; spoke to Ann in my office.
Watched images of Haiti.
Busy - read first hand accounts, watched CCTV footage of the quake actually happening, read requests for help from various Christian relief organizations.
Can't imagine how busy relief staff must be. Can't imagine how busy people helping on the ground in Haiti must be.
Busy.
Makes you ask questions about what my busy has accomplished.
Spinning wheels, pushing paper, putting out fires, endless genealogies?
Busy.
Did I feel what I did today mattered, added worth or value?
Busy.
Busy for good, or busy just being busy?
Busy.

Wonder if people would say Jesus was busy.
Did he rush, multitask, always have something to do, somebody to see?

I'm not for one minute thinking his busy wasn't good busy; and I'm sure his busy was always productive, always adding value.

Busy.

Is my restlessness about my busy day - because I think it wasn't productive, or of value; or, is it because I don't have much to show for my busy; or, and I think this is the one - my busy has stopped me from being who i most need to be on a Thursday?

Thursday is the day before I write.
It's a day when I need to be creative.
Busy and creative are contradictions (for me).
The busy I needed to be was a busy that included solace, quiet, space. That kind of busy didn't show up today.

So I finish frustrated. I was busy, even adding value busy - but what my busy needed to deliver, didn't deliver ...and that means tomorrow is another busy day.

and in that busy ......here's hoping some of it, if not all of it - was for God's Glory ......in my intentional busy.